My baby girl, I miss you so much but I cannot tell you in person. I only know how to write it down for you.
I sit here with my suitcase still packed, but my heart and hands are empty. I lost you after such a very short time of loving you. Everywhere I look I see you. Your new jacket from Aunt Tracy is waiting for you to wear on the plane, being the princess you were meant to be.We had big plans this weekend. This was your first plane ride. We were supposed to go see our friends in Providence. I packed three outfits just for you to wear.
From the moment we met:
I truly knew from the moment I met you, that I
would love you forever.
I think I chose you forever when you looked into my eyes and I found peace. I think you chose me when you looked into my eyes and found unconditional love. You were my joy and comfort on days that I was sad, lonely and missing the daddy you will not get to meet. You were my comforter on days I did not feel well. My pillow girl.
I do not give my entire heart easily but when I do it is forever.
I sit here and try to find all of the happy moments and remember them.Aunt Gloria will never forget you digging to get into her bed thinking it was me, not once but twice……….you hissed at her and ran…….I can smile at that even through the tears.
I am not sure baby girl why this had to happen to you. Why you had to be taken from me so early when I gave you my heart. I do not even know why you left me. If it was to remind me of the breeder I wanted to be…I had already made my decision long ago…..I was going to do it right, I promised myself before I started. If it was to show me the pain that others endure with the loss of a beloved pet, I had felt that pain before.You may not have known this but once I make a promise, it is my word. My word is my everything. My Pop Pop taught me that you always keep your word.
If you make a promise you keep it. I was going to keep it baby girl.
Your beautiful face will never be forgotten Starfire. Your breeder daddy is hurting, and sends his love to you on that Rainbow Bridge. I cannot send you anything but tears at the moment, and yearning for you to be laying in my arm with your head on my pillow.You are my light….I promise to keep you alive in my heart, and never forget the joy you brought to me.